He recently had his say during a recent appearance on the Ray Daniels Presents podcast, and fans have been reacting.
According to him, people constantly saw him as the kid from Nickelodeon when he was with Mariah Carey, and while he loved Mariah and was happy to have someone who wasn’t after him for his money, he never saw himself as a main character.
Nick added that he went as far as wearing suits to try to prove that he is a man because Mariah was the Alpha in their relationship.
His words, “Psychologically, that started fucking with me.
I got married in my 20s still, to the biggest star in the world. My trajectory was here, and then hers — she’s already in a different stratosphere.
I would lay up at night, thinking, like, ‘Is this who I am? Am I Mariah’s man? Is that what my life is supposed to be?’
There’s nothing wrong with it. And I got really comfortable in it. She’s got islands. I’m waking up at noon, people bringing me steaks on a platter.
Then when you have children and the hierarchy of man s**t is like ‘Wait, I’m carrying a purse, the diaper bag. I’m standing on the corner waiting,’
She’s rocking being the alpha that she is. And I believe she needs a dude like that. I’m just not that dude.
And the love kept me there because I was like, ‘You need somebody. You need a support system. You need somebody that don’t want you for your money. You need somebody that’s sincere. You need somebody that’s ready to build a family, raise some amazing kids together.’ And that was my goal. But then there was something constantly in me like…
I was wearing suits everyday cause I’m trying to prove that I’m a man. The inner adolescent in me, I’m trying to prove that I’m a man because I’m standing next to a woman.
That’s the thing, when someone has their own world, their own scope, their own bubble, and you gotta be a participant in that — I’m main character!
I was getting mad at myself. It was like muscle atrophy. I’m not being the dude that God put me on this earth to be.
That’s probably why I have 12 kids now.”
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