Ese Walter, the young lady who in 2013 alleged that she had an affair with COZA pastor, Biodun Fatoyinbo has come out to recount how she was told that exposing the clergyman was going to destroy her.

She recently had her say via her social media page, and Nigerians have been reacting.

According to her, she actually ran into marriage thinking it will save her from the destruction after Biodun himself said her life would be completely damaged if she made any attempt to blow his cover.

Ese added that some friends turned on her, and even her mother said she was a seductress who wanted to bring the man of God down.

Her words, ”Marriage was supposed to be the escape…”

“Shortly after the 2013 blog went viral, I left the Country.”

“It was hard to do anything.”

“Biodun himself said if I told, my life would be destroyed. I believed him. Perhaps that belief propelled me down the aisle.”

“They say behind every anger is fear.”

“My seemingly great anger was laced with greater fear.”

“I knew life would not be the same again and I didn’t know what else to do.”

“Some friends turned on me, Mother said I was a seductress and wanted to bring the man of god, down.”

“I couldn’t imagine the shame the people who loved me felt but I can remember the silence.”

“I remember the shame, guilt and uncertainty that covered me like a blanket. What was I going to do with my destroyed life?”

“Get married. Start a family and focus there.”

“For someone who didn’t have marriage plans before that time, I suspected it was a wrong move but I figured I could handle it.”

“After marriage, I didn’t know how to integrate the new human that was suddenly my new family.”

“The marriage didn’t survive. It was actually dead from the start and finally went under. Sometimes I’d crawl back to make peace and try to be wife. I would decide not to check phones, don’t ask too many questions about why he wasn’t home or where he went….Just be a loving wife and ignore those inner longings and questions. But it was hard to pretend not to feel when I am familiar with my emotions and have been since I was little.”

“When I left the last time, it was with no money, no plans and three children.”

“Life was going to bury us or I was going to win…”

“Life has not yet buried us”